This week has been…. a WEEK.
Overwhelming to-do lists, physically not feeling 100%, hardly having a free + relaxing minute until Thursday night. (Even then my chill time was an open rebellion to tasks I should’ve been doing)
There was many a flash of impatience, rooted in weariness or selfish attitude. Phew, sometimes I was just not a pretty person. But… alas, His Spirit is faithful, Jesus is Redeemer, and God is good.
On the way home, I was in a state of discouragement, impatience, flustered… and Francesca Battistelli’s Strangely Dim came on, and the line that redirected my heart.
I’m gonna fix my eyes on all that You are
Til every doubt I feel
Deep in my heart
Grows strangely dim
Fix my eyes. The minute that challenge filled my car I felt a couple tears on my face.
Faith in Jesus is an adventure, a real adventure. And it’s the sweetest, best part of this life… knowing Him.
So when things are dim or overwhelming, or I’m impatient and feeling stuck…. I will fix my eyes.
Because Jesus and all He is, is constant. Never-changing. And He’s worth fixing my sights, movement, and efforts always toward.
Because there is always hope. Hope for a better outcome, a better attitude, a strong help, joy, rest. Always hope. And there is always forgiveness and redemption. Found in Jesus, and nothing else.
Michael Frye once wrote these wonderful words all about Jesus being the center, with our eyes, thoughts, hearts and minds fixed upon him.
Jesus, be the center, be my source, be my light
Jesus, be the center, be my hope, be my song
Be the fire in my heart, be the wind in these sails
Be the reason that I live, Jesus, Jesus.
“If not now, when?”
Think this is going to be my #1 cling-to truth for this year, the beginning of this new season of life: Fix. Your. Eyes. On. Jesus.