I realize that sometimes in this life
You’re gonna be tossed by the waves
And the currents that seem so fierce,
But in the word of God I’ve got an anchor;
And it keeps me steadfast and unmovable
Despite the tide.
But if the storms don’t cease,
But in case the wind keeps on blowing, (in my life)
My soul has been anchored in the Lord.
— Douglas Miller
For the past month I’ve been living life without writing much about it. Even my journal entries are sporadic. The days have been full on the home front, learning this new place and how to steward it well. My body changing after I decided to stop pumping, resulting in way more hormonal ups and downs than I was expecting. My mind and heart have bursting with thoughts and prayers over recent events. We’re seeking wisdom as to decisions regarding Anna, teething, coronavirus and separation anxiety. My conversations lately with God have been a little messier, with more questions, a lot needier and frequent surrendering of the hormonal pull to anxiety or weariness.
Overwhelmed. Saddened. Inspired. Thankful. Foggy. Tired.
Maybe you feel similar, for your own reasons, in response to your own life circumstances.
Thus says the One who is high and lifted up, who inhabits eternity, whose name is Holy: “I dwell in the high and holy place, and also with him who is of a contrite and lowly spirit, to revive the spirit of the lowly, and to revive the heart of the contrite.” (Isaiah 57:15)
Dane Ortlund writes that Christ’s heart is not drained by our coming to him; his heart is filled up all the more by our coming to him (Gentle and Lowly, 38). Hal-le-lu-jah.
No matter what, we must keep strengthening the faith-muscle of coming to Jesus. If we stay at arm’s length from Him, believing our sin or weakness or suffering somehow diminishes His desire to love or help us, real fellowship with Him will continue to elude us.
“There is no love so great and so wonderful as that which is in the heart of Christ. He is one that delights in mercy; he is ready to pity those that are in suffering and sorrowful circumstances; one that delights in the happiness of his creatures. The love and grace that Christ has manifested does as much exceed all that which is in this world as the sun is brighter than a candle. Parents are often full of kindness towards their children, but that is no kindness like Jesus Christ’s.” Jonathan Edwards
Wherever or however you find yourself, go to Jesus. He is our Shepherd, in Him we have all we need.
He will receive you, love you, help you, direct you, uphold you.
May abiding in Him and believing the Truth be top on our list of priorities today.