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I believe in @beautycounter, even to gift some GREAT things so that you’ll try them for yourself that they may serve you. 

It’s @themasters Friday, and in my city that means an exciting few days is ahead. 

May it be so with your clean beauty swapping!
(Until April 17th. 😊)

Need suggestions or a guide around the website? Message me or click the link in my bio to take a skincare quiz or to find your right foundation shade or to request samples. 

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#Repost @allthecounterthings ・・・ #preachingt #Repost @allthecounterthings
・・・
#preachingtomyself

When you abide in Christ, when you open yourself to His Spirit’s leading and changing, when you trust and obey Him, your whole being can become ministry.

Whatever you do, do it for the glory of God, do it with God, do it and see people as Jesus saw them, with needs and dreams, and love them. 

I have started more endeavors and realized more dreams in the last year then I think in my entire life. Joining @beautycounter was one of them. 

So I encourage you also — 

Take yourself seriously and not too seriously. Work diligently. Dream big. Be faithful. Have fun. Rest on Jesus. Hold it all with open hands. And enjoy it.
Anna when asked if she wants blueberries or to go Anna when asked if she wants blueberries or to go outside. #Easter2021
I love what our pastor said this morning — If it I love what our pastor said this morning — If it was just the cross, we’d be a bunch of forgiven corpses. We have been saved TO something, the richest and fullest of life, in Christ, forever. 

May we be courageous people who know real hope and endurance in the sorrow of life and real gratitude and wonder in the good of it.
Anna’s first Good Friday service at Old Kiokee. Anna’s first Good Friday service at Old Kiokee. Memorable for its distractedness and gratitude over church family and mostly for its Savior. 

What is our hope in life and death?
Christ alone, Christ alone
What is our only confidence?
That our souls to him belong
Who holds our days within his hand?
What comes, apart from his command?
And what will keep us to the end?
The love of Christ, in which we stand
— Keith and Kristyn Getty
“Do not be anxious about anything.” Phil 4:6 “Do not be anxious about anything.” Phil 4:6

For any fellow recovering earnaholics out there, an encouragement: 

‘Anything’ doesn’t only encompass what is outside our control — the future, loss, pain, etc. 

Anything also includes things regarding our life with God. 

“Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed (synonyms: unsettled, disheartened), for I am your God.” Isaiah 41:10

Fear not, He is in you. And happy to be there. 
Fear not, He’s not changed His mind about you.
Fear not, you are right with Him even now because of Christ. 
Fear not, He delights in you. 
Fear not, nothing can separate you from Him. Even you.
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faith, motherhood · 06/26/2020

motherhood: when I realized my view of God was a little small

Honesty time.

What is outside my control is still in God’s control. This is a statement I have no problem remembering or believing.

Where the rub comes in for me is: how can I trust that God wants what I want?

Because as I know from the Bible, His thoughts and ways are different and higher than mine. As. it. should. be. He’s God and I’m not. Hallelujah.

So why do I still find myself in this place where I need things to be within my reach, or in my control, to know peace?

Anna is not a robot. And change is constant. And life is never predictable, sometimes painful and always a gift. And there is an ocean-sized amount of things I don’t know and will never know.

Motherhood has revealed that my view of God was a little small.

Is it enough that God knows what He is doing and I don’t? Is it enough that He is God and I am not, and all that entails? Is it enough that His unchanging nature is sovereign, all-powerful, merciful, and love? Is it enough that He can, and delights to, meet every need my people will ever have, even Anna at 10 months old, even if He doesn’t use me to do it?

“Worry is always a stab at the integrity of God’s love. It is not innocent. It always stems from an overconfidence in your own opinion.”

Tim Keller

My peace, courage and faithfulness as a mom can’t be grounded in my version of what’s comfortable. Reality is, even when Anna is in my arms, her well-being isn’t ultimately in my control. And if she’s discontent or hurting somehow, that doesn’t give me license to be unkind to those around me or live tense in anxiety. My proximity to, knowledge of and care for her can’t be the main source of rest and contentment. Even our wisdom as her parents only goes so far.

I experience peace when I, as her mom, can meet her needs. But that shouldn’t be the standard because there will be an innumerable amount of moments in our years together I won’t be able or expected to meet them.

I am confident that God helps us make wise, good decisions. But that confidence can’t go out the window when I’m not the one making decisions.

It is a grace to see my need, every person’s need, for God, but what God am I turning to?

The one I too-often jam into a human mold? The one I’m afraid won’t be enough when pain comes? OR the one I see in the Bible, the one who met my greatest and deepest need for salvation by sacrificing His Son in my sinful place, the one who deserves to be first place in my life, the one who indwells me?

Unfortunately (or fortunately, depending on the moment), seeing my need usually comes in the same breath as a challenging, scary, navel-gazing or sanctifying moment.

“He is the Father of mercies. He is not cautious in his tenderness toward you. He multiplies mercies matched to your every need, and there is nothing he would rather do… Your gentlest treatment of yourself is less gentle than the way your heavenly Father handles you. His tenderness toward you outstrips what you are even capable of toward yourself.” Dane Ortlund, Gentle and Lowly (133)

Our limitations can either be a reason to live under the weight of fear of everything but God, or they can be an entry point of knowing, glorifying and seeing Him in ways we might never otherwise.

It might feel like it’ll stretch me beyond my capacity, but I can be filled with courage and peace insofar as I believe God has no limits, on His reach or on His beauty or on His love. He is my God-sized God.

Is He yours?


Jeremiah 32:17 | Isaiah 40:28-31 | Isaiah 12:2 | Psalm 145 | Job 42:2

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#Repost @allthecounterthings
・・・
(cue ‘I’m So Excited’ by The Pointer Sisters)

One of my biggest giveaways to date!

I believe in @beautycounter, even to gift some GREAT things so that you’ll try them for yourself that they may serve you. 

It’s @themasters Friday, and in my city that means an exciting few days is ahead. 

May it be so with your clean beauty swapping!
(Until April 17th. 😊)

Need suggestions or a guide around the website? Message me or click the link in my bio to take a skincare quiz or to find your right foundation shade or to request samples. 

I’m here to help! And I can’t WAIT to gift someone this box of goodness. 

peep @emeraldoxco amazing coffee
What a joy to spend the morning with the beautiful What a joy to spend the morning with the beautiful @ashtonquattlebaum. 

We knew each other in middle/high school, now we’re adults and because of Beautycounter, reconnecting and working and dreaming together.

HOW. COOL. 

This is my ‘why’ with Beautycounter — the opportunity to cultivate friendships and help and love women where God has them, connected by clean beauty products.
spotting airplanes and sharing goldfish spotting airplanes and sharing goldfish
#Repost @allthecounterthings ・・・ #preachingt #Repost @allthecounterthings
・・・
#preachingtomyself

When you abide in Christ, when you open yourself to His Spirit’s leading and changing, when you trust and obey Him, your whole being can become ministry.

Whatever you do, do it for the glory of God, do it with God, do it and see people as Jesus saw them, with needs and dreams, and love them. 

I have started more endeavors and realized more dreams in the last year then I think in my entire life. Joining @beautycounter was one of them. 

So I encourage you also — 

Take yourself seriously and not too seriously. Work diligently. Dream big. Be faithful. Have fun. Rest on Jesus. Hold it all with open hands. And enjoy it.
Anna when asked if she wants blueberries or to go Anna when asked if she wants blueberries or to go outside. #Easter2021
I love what our pastor said this morning — If it I love what our pastor said this morning — If it was just the cross, we’d be a bunch of forgiven corpses. We have been saved TO something, the richest and fullest of life, in Christ, forever. 

May we be courageous people who know real hope and endurance in the sorrow of life and real gratitude and wonder in the good of it.
Anna’s first Good Friday service at Old Kiokee. Anna’s first Good Friday service at Old Kiokee. Memorable for its distractedness and gratitude over church family and mostly for its Savior. 

What is our hope in life and death?
Christ alone, Christ alone
What is our only confidence?
That our souls to him belong
Who holds our days within his hand?
What comes, apart from his command?
And what will keep us to the end?
The love of Christ, in which we stand
— Keith and Kristyn Getty
“Do not be anxious about anything.” Phil 4:6 “Do not be anxious about anything.” Phil 4:6

For any fellow recovering earnaholics out there, an encouragement: 

‘Anything’ doesn’t only encompass what is outside our control — the future, loss, pain, etc. 

Anything also includes things regarding our life with God. 

“Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed (synonyms: unsettled, disheartened), for I am your God.” Isaiah 41:10

Fear not, He is in you. And happy to be there. 
Fear not, He’s not changed His mind about you.
Fear not, you are right with Him even now because of Christ. 
Fear not, He delights in you. 
Fear not, nothing can separate you from Him. Even you.
A vulnerable one today, Insta-friends. Mind on the A vulnerable one today, Insta-friends. Mind on the coming weekend. 

Years of painful and gracious transforming revealed false beliefs, fear and pride so strong they were insulating me from God. So with the help of the Holy Spirit, I began to practice opening my hands and relaxing the white-knuckle grip I had on being ‘enough’ on my own. I needed Him to be everything for me because I couldn’t be everything for me. By the grace of God I finally understood: He is incomparable. Nothing and no one is like Him. Nothing and no one can be what He is.

If Jesus is not most precious to me, I'll crumble under the hard, I’ll depend on control, I'll despair over the painful, I'll idolize the good, and I'll be left to settle for mediocrity.

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