God is always present with me, but that doesn’t mean I am always aware of my presence with God.
But that’s what life with Him looks like for me these days: doing whatever I can to stay open and attentive to Him.
It looks like living with an understanding of the Holy Spirit like I lived with a knowing of Julia when she was in the womb. She was there, always, no matter if I was consciously thinking about her or not. Same with God.
There isn’t much of a consistent method these days, but my attention seems like it is almost always on the Lord. Mostly out of desperation, probably, but also because He’s my person.
Reciting breath prayers like “God is here and I am loved.” all throughout the day.
Employing ‘2-minute retreats’ where I’m quiet and still — no talking, no noise, no inputs.
Setting the wallpaper of my phone or Apple watch to a phrase or Scripture I’m using to reorient my thoughts. These days it’s my own paraphrase of Psalm 27: One thing I ask, Lord, that I may dwell in Your presence, enjoy Your perfection and converse with You in this hour.
My life with God right now doesn’t have a lot of consistent methods. I used to think that wasn’t okay. I had to be doing a particular set of things to be doing it “right.” But, grace and gospel-freedom and following the Lord. It may not look like a lot on paper or to the naked eye, but in my soul it’s producing a great deal of peace and steadiness and energy for the work He lays before me.