It was when the cycle of striving, perfecting, worrying and pretending became too much and I was ready to give it up that God said, Finally. This is where we can start. Humble. Needy. Desperate for something outside myself to be the answer. Then I realize how much was lacking in my view of God. So I spent months asking, Who is God, really? Who is He to me? Who is He for me? What is He like? What does He sound like?